Well, it looks like I never followed up about whether or not I liked using BetterHelp for counseling or not. And the short answer is “No, I do not like it”. Although, I think that the concept is good, I did not personally enjoy my session with my counselor. It seemed way too informal to me which I like in the sense that it makes your counselor seem more like a “friend” but, at the same time, I don’t need another friend – I need a counselor.

My counselor was still in her house shoes and was playing with her dog on my video chat with her. Could you imagine going to an appointment like that in person where the counselor seems more focused on her own life than your issues…? That part I did not like. We got into talking about her sick mother and for a few seconds it seemed more like I was the counselor than her. Only, I just paid almost $200.00 to act like a “friend” to a complete stranger.  If I’m going to pay a ridiculous amount of money for time and location convenience than I better be getting my full money’s worth. I could wait months to get into a counselor locally and only pay my $50.00 co-pay and get way better service at a cheaper cost to myself. So, needless to say, I am not doing BetterHelp again. It just left a bitter taste in my mouth as the “first impression”.

On a positive note, it is Friday and I have a 3 day weekend because of Memorial Day. Today’s work day seems to be pretty chill so far which is much needed after the chaos of earlier this weekend. I mean, going into a full fledged anxiety attack at work on a Monday is not my ideal way to start my work week.

Awful, I started my work week thinking that I was going to be fired because they had someone come over from a different department to “train” me and it turned out that, according to her, she had received negative feedback about me and was there to reteach. Because I am apparently a failure at life. So the first half of the day was spent rooming patients and internally freaking out because I’m thinking I’m like a step away from being fired. Then, after lunch, she changed her entire story and acted like I wasn’t doing anything wrong and that I was the one that was wronged because I only got 1 day of training. Which is true, I did only get 1 day of training – then there was only about 3 hours of actual training and the rest of the 5 hours was spent being “on my own” with someone watching me. Obviously, not enough time to really learn the job with guidance.

So, next week, after my much needed little “mini-vaca” we are going to have a pretty hectic week for the extent of it. Next Friday we have 15 patients and counting which makes absolutely no sense since Thursday, we only have 2 patients. It goes like 8, 9, 2, 15. I mean, are you kidding me? Why not schedule some of the patients for Thursday instead of clumping them all together on Friday? That would make sense to me but it apparently does not make sense to whoever is scheduling our patients.

Anyway, I am excited about the 3 day weekend. I’m totally going to stay up late to get the maximum amount of time out of my short break. See you on the flip side!