well then

So I totally almost got fired about two weeks ago and since then I have been too busy to write about it. That department where I wrote like things felt like it was too good to be true - well, they were. I should have known better. After all the circles I have danced in, …

september

Well half of September is going to be busy and the other half of it is going to be dead. I just realized this today after checking our schedule at work. The reason for the drastic difference in traffic is because my provider is going on vacation again so a week before he leaves, we …

Queen

I have really got to start doing something to work on my mental health and wellbeing because I just feel myself getting more and more anxious. More stressed. More scared. More of feeling like a failure. And largely, I really think a lot of it has to do with how I internally speak to myself. …

grad school

Today is the first official day of graduate school and the myriad of emails from the school have already started. Technically, my first class isn't until Wednesday evening and then my second class is Thursday evening. As you can probably tell, I am only going part-time for now until I can get a feel for …

discontentment

I threw away my Book of Shadows and my Grimoire last night. Both books that I spent months decorating and adding research to. Why? I don't know why other than it just felt like I was playing make belief. I felt like everything I wrote down in those books were just a bunch of lies …

Am I really a different person? Is the me everyone used to know dead?

I have been told time and time again by, let's just call him Bob so he stays anonymous, that I am not the person he met. That I am a completely different person and he wishes I used to be that person again. Unfortunately, I don't know who that person was that I used to …

We are officially poor

2 weeks before graduate school starts and we are officially poor. We have about $300.00 to live off of for about a week (this being after bills are paid) and we get paid again only about $600.00 only for more bills to come out and be left with about $200 to live off of. My …

minestrone

Well it is getting down to the wire for me as I have about two weeks left before graduate school starts for the fall semester. Totally dreading it TBH. I have no idea what kind of monster I am going to be waking up. And just as fast, I am no longer a witch or …

Ebbs & Flow

It's been a little bit since I posted something of substance on this blog. I wish I could say I've been busy but I haven't really been busy on the scale of having a good excuse. I feel like a lot has happened since my little break. One would be that we had a pregnancy …

Robert Gould Shaw Memorial Day

Today, 155 Years ago, my patron saint died at Fort Wagner, South Carolina at just the ripe young age of 25. Colonel Robert Gould Shaw of the 54th Massachusetts Infantry. And, today, I honor his memory. Like I do every year on this day.